I am feeling a little better since this weekend. I still do not feel up to my old self yet, but I will get there. I am sorry if my last post offended or hurt anyone's feelings. I felt like I was drowning inside myself and I did not want to even scream for help. The only release I felt like I had was to write about it. Well for what it is worth I am sorry anyone was hurt by it.

Feeling Low

For the last couple of days I felt every emotion I think possible. I go from one extreme to the other, even crying a little on Saturday. I am just emotionally drained at this point and I need a break for myself.I feel like everyone wants something from me right now and they forget that I am just one person.I even tried to lean on someone over the weekend about a letter I received and the conversation was abruptly ended.People forget that when they voice problems on me there is at least three other people waiting to do the same thing to me when they hang up with me.I am not saying I mind, but sometimes I need a break. Also when there is something wrong in the family and it is kept from me intentionally or unintentionally it hurts my feelings.Oh there is also my birthday that is bothering me. Several people did not show had absolutely no reason to not come. I did a lot for these people and it really hurt my feelings that they would not show up. This does not include one person whose family member was ill... she had a very good reason for not showing up. The point of this post is because I am hurt. I know everyone cares a lot for me, but right now I just feel taken advantage of. I need a break and some time for myself. I would greatly appreciate it if people would give me some time for myself.

Sweet 16

Happy Sweet 16 Britt. I can't believe your going to be sixteen on Wednesday. It seem like yesterday you were just a little girl. I wish there was a stop button somewhere so that we could stop you from getting any older. I know sometimes we may treat you like a little kid, but it is only because we love you and we don't want to believe that you are growing up. I am so proud of the person you are. You are such a special person to me. I sometimes feel like you are my daughter as well. I would do anything for you. Have a great 16th birthday .
Love Your Aunt Ashley

Lazy Day

Today I am being lazy and it is so great! It is 2:20 and I am still in my pajamas and my hair is a mess. I would take a picture and post it, but it may scare you too much. The only productive thing I have done today is make breakfast and finish reading my book. The book was called The Secret Wife of King George IV. It was such a good book I could not put it down. Luckily for the kids, Phoun saw this and stepped in to make the kids lunch. Once I finished the book me, Meia, and Alec played Disney bingo. Next on the list movie time and whatever else we can think of that does not involve me getting out of my pajamas:).

Halloween Time (Highlights from last year)

I thought I would take a second and post some of the Halloween pictures from last year. We all had a lot of fun, especially Jeff and Christy! It has always been a tradition in our family since the girls were little to always go to my sister's house for Halloween. This year I think it will be the biggest ever. Stay tuned for pictures of this year's Halloween bash.

Birthday Party slide show

I've Been Tagged

I have been tagged so I guess I have to make up seven interesting fact about myself...thanks to my sister.
1.I can breath fire and not get burned.
2. I once rode a 7 ton elephant.
3.I am a real life lion tamer.
4.I chain smoke a carton a day.
5. I am a going to be a female escort when I grow up.
6.I can stick my whole fist in my mouth.
7.I have a secret identity.
Ok, I will cut the crap no of this is true or is it!
Seven Fact about me.
1.I have always wanted to worked at sea world with the killer whales and be a marine biologist even though I am terrified of the ocean.
2.I did ride a elephant when I was little, but I don't know how much it weighed.
3Like my sister I also altered my birth certificate when I was fifteen so I could work at McDonalds, but my reason was different. I had Alec and Phoun was doing his Basic training.
4.I have 7 brothers and sisters. Let me break down the math for everyone. One "full" sister, one step sister, three half brothers, and two half sisters.The youngest of my sisters is a month younger than my son Alec...what a family.I no it sounds like a crazy family, but we're not. I love all my sisters and brothers and even though I put on here my full, step or half I love them all the same.
5.I am very shy at times. Sometimes when I get around a group of people I find myself shying away or closing off, even with my closest friends from childhood. I think this is because I had Alec at such a young age that I sometime forget how to interact with people and I get nervous. You can even tell on me when this happens. If you look at my neck I get real red and splotchy.
6. My favorite color is green.
7. I love historical fiction books. Philippa Gregory is my favorite author.